I find myself asking this question on a daily basis lately. Life has a way of challenging you. Life has a way of making you look long and hard at yourself. Life has a way of helping you realize things have changed or need to change. You make a choice and move on but then all of a sudden the same challenge appears out of no where…why now?
When life throws these things out to you, you have to make the choice as to how you will face them. Finding my voice has helped me during these times. I made my decisions to move on because I didn’t deserve to be treated that way or made to feel I did something wrong. Does it make it any easier of a decision? Absolutely not. I still feel. I still care. But I needed to do what was best for me. And yet it the curve ball is thrown back…why now?
I am a firm believer in owning your responsibility in all you do. If I treat someone unfairly, I will own it. If I hurt someone whether it was intentional or not, I own it. If I had anything to do with any conflict in my life, I own it. But not everyone is like that when it comes to dealing with life’s curve balls. So that is when I needed to make a choice…
Is this how I want to be treated? Is this good for me and my life? Is this it worth the effort even when it brings me pain?
The choice was made for ME and what was best for ME. I moved on and moved forward because it is best for ME. And yet I still ask ….Why Now?