Sometimes I think~ is it really worth trying to help out? Is it really worth trying to be nice? Is it really worth trying to fit in when you are the new person?
This is where I am such a naive person and want to see the good in everyone. I think everyone is like me and truly try to help and be nice because that is what you are supposed to be especially when it comes to doing things for your kids. But the reality is, too often there are people who will find something to complain about or make an issue out of nothing because….I don’t know why. I wish I knew.
The past few months I have been trying to find my way into a whole other world because of my child. I have been unsuccessful. I have been made to feel like I am in high school again. I have tried on numerous occasions to help in many ways even when I know how difficult it would be for me to do so. Each time there has been some sort of “issue” and I am pushed aside. I can handle this but it is hard to explain to my child when she finds out about it or sees me upset. I know it has no reflection on me and how I am as a person. I know I am coming from a place of good. I know I am just trying to be there and involved for my child. I know I am a setting an example for my child on how to deal with people.
I will not allow it to affect my child and I do not allow her to truly know how hard it is for me because of how wonderful it has been for her. This is what parents do. I hope I can teach my child to keep going when things are hard. I try to show her I know it has nothing to do with me and it is just a reflection of them. I want her to be that person who continues to be kind and helpful (but not a pushover) and when people make her question if it is truly worth it, she will say it is and carry on, with her head held high, knowing she is a better person.